i can't, i'm sorry

i'm sorry
screw it
i can't write on blog without going all negative
if i do try to write something happy, it's boring
and i'm sick and tired of being negative
it just ruins everything
it's like smoking
it ruins not just you, but the people around you too

coming back

ok, i'm getting back to blog now
not that anyone cares
but i'm going to start writing again...i think

see, there were two things about blog that made me stop writing:
1. everybody is really negative
(and i'm including myself in that so don't get touchy)
2. i makes me very self centered
in fact, my next blog is not going to include the words "i" or "me" in it at all.

i've been thinking for a while about how to say this
and this is what i've come up with:

you wouldn't know how it feels to feel second-best would you?
because people are too afraid of making you upset to put you in that position
but you put other people--(me)--in that position ALL THE TIME
and let me tell you
IT SUCKS!
but you wouldn't know that would you?

and i've got one more thing to say:
SCREW YOU

yup

why is it

that some of the most beautiful moments

are the ones when you don't have a camera?

and again...

and again i check my blog

and again
NO FRICKIN COMMENTS!

funny thoughts

Are children who act in rated 'R' movies allowed to see them?

Who was the first person to say, "See that chicken over there ... I'm gonna eat the first thing that comes out if its butt"?

Who was the person who discovered that you can actually eat artichokes?

Can you get cornered in a round room?

If an atheist has to go to court, do they make him swear on the Bible?

How come we say 'It's colder than hell outside' when isn't it realistically always colder than hell since hell is supposed to be fire and brimstone?

Why are people so scared of mice, yet we all love Mickey Mouse?

Isn't it funny how the word 'politics' is made up of the words 'poli' meaning 'many' in Latin, and 'tics' as in 'bloodsucking creatures’?

Do they have girl’s bathrooms in gay bars?

If the president were gay, would his husband be the first man?

and finally, my personal favorite:

God bless athiests!

why why why

sometimes i feel so left out it's not even funny
no one tells me stuff anymore
i feel left out with my friends

people get the totally wrong impression of me
just because i get good grades and like to read
doesn't mean i can't have fun
watch your words
they hurt more than you know
i feel left out with my peers

"haha, that was so funny,"
"i owe him some money"
why is that ok in 8th grade? tell me please
i feel left out, in a different mindset

"what's wrong? tell me"
suddenly, i'm left out of everything
"i'm fine, it's nothing"
but it is something

i try to be steadfast
like a rock, constantly slammed by the waves
but sometimes it feels like those waves
are crumbling me down
bit by bit

why can't things stay the same
why do they have to change?
why why why?