jack johnson

he is probably my favorite singer/songwriter
his words are so true
and i know that's cheesy but it's also true

i just bought his new album
"sleep through the static"
and there was this one line that just rang so true to me
and i don't even know if i interpreted it right
but i don't care

"Nobody really knows
But underneath it all
There's this heart all alone
What about when it's gone?
It really won't be so long
Sometimes it feels like a heart
Is no place to be singing from at all"

somtimes that's just the way i feel about everything
like eventually it's all going to gone
and whether what you do is from the heart or not,
in the long run
is it really going to matter?

because eventually everything, this entire universe is going to be sucked into the black hole at the center. and then everything is going to be gone
so what does it matter?

haha, ok ummm

yeah so i just reread that last post
and i realized that it sounds really emo

don't worry
I'M NOT CUTTING!
i'm talking about something compleatly different

feeling the pressure

feeling the pressure
bearing down
forcing my spine it seems

i don't know what to do
i don't know when to stop
i don't know when i've gone too far

i don't have many examples
to help show me the way
i wish i had someone
who i could follow

i'm getting different feedback
from everyone
and i'm getting so confused
i don't know what to do

my opinion

ok, i don't know what type of comments i'm going to get on this
but i just wanted to talk about some of my views and opinions on certain things
like, controversial things
like, political things
kindof,
so here goes:

1. abortions
i do believe in abortions
yes i do
i think that it's easy to say "just put the baby up for adoption" but like most things, that's easier said than done. because often times, adoption is not good. some children who have been adopted grow up feeling like no one wants them or have lingering insecurities because they believe that their true parents never wanted them
i just think that adoption is not always the answer.
also, what if the girl was raped, and gets pregnant from it. would you want to have to have the memory of that awful experience for nine months?
another thing, if you believe that it's "taking away a life," here's what i think, it's a life that hasn't even been experienced yet. unborn babies don't have any memories, they can't feel things yet. so (and i know this sounds cruel but...) it just doesn't seem like you're really killing something, if it hasn't ever even breathed. i know that sounds kindof heartless but i'm just saying, to me it would be more sad if a ten-year old died not an unborn baby.

2. gay/lesbian marriage
agian, i believe in this
i seriously don't even care
if you've found someone that you're happy with, you should be able to spend your life together just like any other happy couple
i have absolutely no problem at all with gay people and in fact, i think it's great that people are finally more able to talk about it openly.
i admit though, i do get a little bit weirded out by like transvestites and people who have had like surguries and stuff. and that man who was a woman who had a child...that's just weird.
but gay people i'm fine with! haha

yeah, idk if you agree with me or not
these are just some things i've been thinking about recently
don't get mad at me if you dno't agree! they're just my opinions!

not knowing

not knowing what to do
looking out on all the suffering
no ideas come to mind
crazy crazy

can't do the simplest things anymore
can't tie my shoes
can't write in cursive
can't write at all

losing sight
losing sound
fall back
on the ground

finding nothing
finding no one
bottom line...not finding at all

losing it all
losing it fast
and there's nothing i can do
about that

confusion sucks
i wish i always knew what was going on
i wish i was still friends with all the people i've ever been friends with
i wish i was a nicer person
i wish that i could be with someone forever
i wish that i could end all the pain in the world
i wish that people would look up to me
i wish that i could make people care
i wish that i could stop global warming
i wish that there was a cure for cancer
i wish that everyone could figure out their disagreements
i wish i could make a difference
i wish i could make a change

breaking free

i felt like i hadn't written in a while

and then the other day

i came on

and made a bunch of random poems

and they didn't really make sense

even to me

but i liked them

they were fun to make

and then afterwards

it felt renewing

just, idk

i felt so happy

interesting how writing a simple combination of words

can make you feel so good

i think i am loosing my grip

on reality

i need to write

i'm not the same person i once was

and it's scaring me

i don't know how to deal

i don't know what caused the change

and worst of all,

i don't know how to go back

another poem?

i'm not really sure

irony?

ephonocentric

centripital force

spirals

logonoethnic

flies

flying

train...of thought

blond hair

blue eyes

scooters

the end

what the...?

i have no idea what that was

but i'm going to call it a poem

crazy crazy

crazy crazy fight night
bright lights
happy crowds

sound

BOOM!
Cheers
"hello, would you like to join..."
"hotdogs, one dollar per pound people, one dollar!"
don't ask where those have been

haha
happy laughter
spirals through the air
borne high
on crazy crazy
happy atmosphere
of fight night

going, going, gone

it really bothers me sometimes
how i log on
with ideas swirling in my head

wanting to be written down
captured

and the second i click the "new post" button
they're gone
spiraling off
to be thought of later

but they're never there when you actually have any need to write about them

Mayhem Poets

So, our class went to see these guys today
at the Flynn
and they were AWESOME!

seriously i thought they were so cool
they weren't lame and boring,
they were cool,
they talked the way we did
they were funny
they were interesting

i wish i could do stuff like that

like that violinist
i wish i could play like him
cause that was frickin amazing
no joke

so yeah,
i pretty much am in love with them now
and so if you ever get the opportunity to go and see them
take that opportunity

wishing

i wish that i could be the type of person
that when you see them
you think
"wow, i wish i could be like them"

i wish i could be the type of person
that people couldn't take their eyes off of
not because i was amazingly gorgeous or anything
just because i looked interesting
like someone you'd want to know

i wish i could be the type of person
who could inspire others to choose the right path
could inspire others to live their life the fullest
because they wanted to do what i do

i wish i could be the type of person
who takes the first leap
not the one
who's afraid of falling

i wish i could be the type of person
who could live their life
without giving a damn
about what other people think of them
not the one
who does everything
in hopes that it will please others

i wish i could be the type of person
who could face their fears
and let out their emotions
and live their life
free of regret

i wish i could be the type of person
that everyone looks up to

yes

yes aiden, i am italian

just out of curiosity...

hey guys, do me a favor
if you will
would you comment on this post
if you read all my posts?

i'm just wondering,
who actually reads it