lost

i came onto blogger today
wanting to spill...
about everything
about last night
and as soon as i logged on
and clicked that promising button "New Post"
i couldn't think of the right words
to say what i wanted to say
and also, i'm not entirely sure
that i want everyone to know
what i was thinking last night

i really wish i could talk to my friends
but they're probably sick of hearing about it
and it's not really them...that i need to talk to right now

i'm going to say that....
it felt...good... last night
being in your arms
and two of my major worries went away

but another one came up
because as i was standing there
trying to do my part
talking with someone else
his unexpected, almost agressive questions
confused me even more

sometimes i wish...
i don't even know what i wish for
that everything would work out fine?
but i've come to think that's an impossibility now
there are two many variables in this equation
the answer can never be something neat like: x=a
instead the equation looks like this:
-s(g-10t)-9mu(14k+7a)
with the entire thing divided by the square root of pi times 5
and the final result cubed within an inch of it's life

yep, right now
-s(g-10t)-9mu(14k+7a)
divided by the square root of pi times 5
and cubed=my life